Puzzled

A sense of discomfort that you're giving me. I don't feel close to you like before any longer. The gap between us is drifting us apart even further away. I seeked help from you. I talked to you. I smiled to you. But, something is just not right. I don't know why.....

Maybe the weirdo me made you jump into some sorts of inaccurate perceptions of me in you. Maybe you've mistaken that I don't appreciate your help. But, you gotta know, I don't express myself. I'm living in my own world.

At times, I really felt like having a secret-room to myself where I can SHUT myself from the world outside.

All the friends I thought I could be close to, seemed like getting drifted away, far away from me. I have no idea of why. Their characters, their personalities, are just totally the opposite of mine. No one fits perfectly into my square.

I'm a loner. I know a few loners too. Loner can talks well with another loner. But there's still a gap. Ishhh.... Troublesome lar loners.

I said I'm happy here, yes, at times.

I'm lonely, yes, when I hide away from them.

I'm crazy, yes, indeed as how I'm feeling right now!

No mood to study man. Seriously. I don't enjoy all these craps. Craps. Craps which are driving me into a corner of boredom.

If I do have the chance, I wanna run away from here, I would run away to pursue the real desire of mine. Unfortunately, I'm stucked here, somewhere in the middle. I'm trapped. Be optimistic? Sorry, many optimists meet failures too. Failures made them learn better? Sorry, not all.

JUST SHUT UP NANA LANA !!!!!

YOU'RE A PEST !!!

YOU'RE IRRITATING !!!

GET LOST !!!

---------------> but i'll still be back for the next post... bubu!