***RANTS

Beh tahan... I thought that I can actually tahan myself from blogging for TWO WEEKS but due to the frustrations, I couldn't help myself but to post something up to RANT!!!

Please do not read if you're not into this. LOL.

ADUI...

Been really unlucky these 2 days... FLOAT ERROR... followed by in-tally CC AMT. Both happened in two consecutive days...


HOW UNLUCKY OF ME... MY OH MY...


Was it really my fault? o_O?

I did informed earlier... but... sigh... nvm lar... my fault lorrr...

In-Tally CC Amt? I did asked if I can use d MSC... but... nvm lorrrr... my fault again...

I think one of my superiors memang doubt me ady... bo bian... maybe she had the perception that I WORK like how I CRAZED around...

But, I do WORK when I should and I PLAY as if there is no tomorrow...



BIG SIGHHH............

TWO MORE DAYS to go before I attempted on any POSSIBLE ERRORS : AGAIN..... duh....

JB : TAKE TWO

Although my life in K17 is in the state of hustling & bustling, I'm still in the plan of leaving Selangor for the weekends for yet again~

I HAVE TO. I NEED TO SEE TO SOMETHING IMPORTANT. VERY IMPORTANT. MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THAN GETTING MYSELF INTO DEAN'S LIST.

I have to put down a lot of things. I have to sacrifice on a lot of things. I have to give up on a lot of things. I have to and I repeat I HAVE TO.

Pals, don't ask why. I'm sealing up my mouth coz it's simply something that freak me off and I might just fill the ponds during the drought.

Arghhhhhhhhhh...........




Am still, having the feel of hating the life here...........

Post-Haem Trip

For those who were kinda confused with my title, Post-Haem Trip means.... My Post Haematology Paper's Trip. Well, I'll make it very brief and simple as I have completely no mood to blog about it due to some reasons.

Thanks to those who'd lent me an ear for my frustrations.

I was very disappointed as I thought that I would be able to shout or scream my lungs out during the supposed-to-be-hill-climbing session which turned out to be an unsuccessful event on the Friday, the 13th's. A bad omen? Duh...

Photos were being uploaded in my Facebook. So, feel free to take a look at them.

Supposed to be heading back to JB this Sunday but I'm staying put in college for another one week for some "possible" tasks. Whatever lar~ Okay lar... Bo Mood lah... Duhhh...

* A Boring Post *

WazWong???

Whatz'z Wrongz???

Been trying to post up one post but to my frustration, I just couldn't upload the images, sighhh...

Been trying for two days man...

Hopefully I do get to post it up soon...

Hm...

Aiyayaaaaa, Final, Final Exam's coming, GAMBATEH ALL!!!

S.O.S. I NEED a Breather Desperately!

Perhaps I was monopoly-ing things...

Perhaps I shall share the burdens...

Perhaps I shall let loose of things...

Perhaps I shall have trust in people...

Perhaps I shall refrain myself from the pressures...

Perhaps I shall let off steam and work out stress...

Perhaps I shall numb myself...

Perhaps I shall...

Let it go...

Been really crazy an outta my mind lately... Yet again, am deprived of a good sleep, of adequate rest. Although I did not volunteer for the leader of each assignment, but I was like monopoly-ing things in order to have it like what and how I wanted them to be. Damn. Okayz. It was all, nothing but for the sake of "us".


I, shall STOP monopolying.


I need someone competent in my next assignment, next semester in order to stop having all those stupidious headaches that have been haunting me this semester. That was why I flared up when she told me that she couldn't find any info(s) for my ANIMALS Assignment, yes, I, scolded "friend" for the very first time, right FACE-To-FACE without giving faces. Yea, no doubt. I deny if I was in the wrong. I've told her I need everything by last week right before I went back to JB during the Maulidur Rasul break. She, still have the nerves to tell me that her info(s) have all been eradicated by the "sudden" VIRUS ATTACK!!! Can't she just proceed in recovering back those info(s) from the same sources with just a click on the mouse in such a high-tech world like TODAY??? Biu.....!!!

I ATTACK you baru tau!!!

Yesterday, the whole day, I was having a severe headache, making me having discomforting nausea-like-feeling... Coming to the NIGHT-time, it was totally unbearable and yet, I went for the HE discussion and when I was just about to leave my room, I spotted something wrong with the data. Oh, come on, don't anybody check it at all??? Why was it only me who spotted it? Shyt. It wasn't my part too. Why the heck did I, the only one who saw it and not you (plural) ??? Shyty Shyt Shyt.


I somehow curbed the anger, remained in silence while editting it during the discussion. You people may realize that I was really not in the right manner, the used-to-be-J during normal discussions. Sorry.


Man, I need a breather.


I need, a competent LEADER for my coming up next semester assignmentSSSSS....


Perhaps I need a competent partner*ship in the near future too. :P

Faulty Cooker

This is infuriating...

My rice cooker is not working... I wonder why! Been boiling and cooking my macaroni for soooo long and yet, after one hour, I'm still getting nothing to eat! Shyty Shyt Shyt! Borrowed friend's cooker and still, it's not cooking... Ouch... Biscuits Biscuits Biscuits!!! Biu........

Puzzled

A sense of discomfort that you're giving me. I don't feel close to you like before any longer. The gap between us is drifting us apart even further away. I seeked help from you. I talked to you. I smiled to you. But, something is just not right. I don't know why.....

Maybe the weirdo me made you jump into some sorts of inaccurate perceptions of me in you. Maybe you've mistaken that I don't appreciate your help. But, you gotta know, I don't express myself. I'm living in my own world.

At times, I really felt like having a secret-room to myself where I can SHUT myself from the world outside.

All the friends I thought I could be close to, seemed like getting drifted away, far away from me. I have no idea of why. Their characters, their personalities, are just totally the opposite of mine. No one fits perfectly into my square.

I'm a loner. I know a few loners too. Loner can talks well with another loner. But there's still a gap. Ishhh.... Troublesome lar loners.

I said I'm happy here, yes, at times.

I'm lonely, yes, when I hide away from them.

I'm crazy, yes, indeed as how I'm feeling right now!

No mood to study man. Seriously. I don't enjoy all these craps. Craps. Craps which are driving me into a corner of boredom.

If I do have the chance, I wanna run away from here, I would run away to pursue the real desire of mine. Unfortunately, I'm stucked here, somewhere in the middle. I'm trapped. Be optimistic? Sorry, many optimists meet failures too. Failures made them learn better? Sorry, not all.

JUST SHUT UP NANA LANA !!!!!

YOU'RE A PEST !!!

YOU'RE IRRITATING !!!

GET LOST !!!

---------------> but i'll still be back for the next post... bubu!

Insanity

Ahhhhhhhhhhh...........


shall be the opening for this post... keke...




I pest myself for not being able to persevere until the very end! Although the tests are coming, I just couldn't persevere the determination to study, study and to study! The moment I reach home, back to my room, the moment I sparkled my eyes towards the notes, damn, I headed to my bed. Sleep. Gosh. I don't wish this to happen. What am I going to do if I do fail? Fail... Don't wish to.



At times, I really feel like dropping out from this course, this U but, at times, I don't know what's my aim in my life. See, I've got a test tonight and yet, I'm here, here to my blog. *smack forehead* If I do tell papa mama that I wanna drop out, they gonna force me to work, I don't wanna work yet, I'm not prepared!




How I wished I can lead my whole life, enjoying myself to the fullest but that's a very foolish thought. Perhaps, finding a spouse and marry off may be what I'm aiming for? Be a housewife? Ouchhhhh..... If that's the case, I'll be draining away all this so-called "knowledge" that I've gained so far.




haihhhhh

haihhhhh

haihhhhh



Any job prospect for my course? Heard a lot of stories. Made me wanna drop, really drop but I just couldn't bring it up to my parents. If that's the case, I will have to endure the suffering for memorizing all the lecture notes which do not give me ANYTHING in return but a USELESS CERT.





***sitting here morosely***

I can't see my future.

I can't shape my future.

I....I....I.......





I WANNA FLYYYYYYYYYYY..........

IRRITATED!!!!!!!!

I'M IRRITATED.

I thought I could read in silence...

Everything went fine... peaceful...perfectly FINE

UNTILLLLLLLL...............................................................

the "CROW" appeared.

Blabbered all the way through the moment she appeared!

STUPIAK!

[very bad of me BUT i'm really offensed]

Came all the way down and yet get distracted...
All because of the noises made by her group.

After posting this, I'm gonna shift place again...
Duhhh.....

Why don't I read in my room?
I CAN'T...

I'll jump onto my bed and I'll get drowned by it!

Haha!