shall be the opening for this post... keke...
I pest myself for not being able to persevere until the very end! Although the tests are coming, I just couldn't persevere the determination to study, study and to study! The moment I reach home, back to my room, the moment I sparkled my eyes towards the notes, damn, I headed to my bed. Sleep. Gosh. I don't wish this to happen. What am I going to do if I do fail? Fail... Don't wish to.
At times, I really feel like dropping out from this course, this U but, at times, I don't know what's my aim in my life. See, I've got a test tonight and yet, I'm here, here to my blog. *smack forehead* If I do tell papa mama that I wanna drop out, they gonna force me to work, I don't wanna work yet, I'm not prepared!
How I wished I can lead my whole life, enjoying myself to the fullest but that's a very foolish thought. Perhaps, finding a spouse and marry off may be what I'm aiming for? Be a housewife? Ouchhhhh..... If that's the case, I'll be draining away all this so-called "knowledge" that I've gained so far.
Any job prospect for my course? Heard a lot of stories. Made me wanna drop, really drop but I just couldn't bring it up to my parents. If that's the case, I will have to endure the suffering for memorizing all the lecture notes which do not give me ANYTHING in return but a USELESS CERT.
***sitting here morosely***
I can't see my future.
I can't shape my future.
I WANNA FLYYYYYYYYYYY..........