In Silent Mode

I admit. I DO. I’m not a good friend. Times and again, I’ve failed my responsibility as a friend. Be it, the past or even, the present me pursuing this tertiary study here, I definitely won’t make a good friend to anybody. I ain’t expressing myself in many ways. I tend to be, I want to be, I am, obviously a loner. I do things alone and that’s that. It’s just really hard for me to show my concern to anyone around me, even, towards my family members. I don’t express my concern to them either, whatz more, to the outsiders??? It’s really weird, It’s just really weird. I ain’t understanding myself for this peculiar behavior of mine. I’m afraid to show my care for people. Take for instance, I obviously wanted to accompany 1 friend for her check-up BUT I ended up saying that I wanted to go for the MarryBrown Meal and looking around that area. Failure, aren’t I just a total failure??? I just seek forgiveness from you. Perhaps I’m really bad, rotten to the utmost level that you’re thinking of snipping off the thread that once brought us together. Voice out your thoughts, if, there were rooms for salvation. Keeping quiet, denying everything ain’t helping either. Sometimes, people are just ignorant of their actions which will eventually ruin things. So, I’m waiting, waiting to hear from you. Yes, I admit, for once again, during that week, when, perhaps, when you needed the support the most, I was neglecting you, I apologize on that. Yes, perhaps to you, it’s just TOO LATE. IT definitely WAS. SORRY… [Perhaps SORRY doesn’t mean anything to you any longer…]