Saturday, February 14, 2009

In Silent Mode

I admit. I DO. I’m not a good friend. Times and again, I’ve failed my responsibility as a friend. Be it, the past or even, the present me pursuing this tertiary study here, I definitely won’t make a good friend to anybody. I ain’t expressing myself in many ways. I tend to be, I want to be, I am, obviously a loner. I do things alone and that’s that. It’s just really hard for me to show my concern to anyone around me, even, towards my family members. I don’t express my concern to them either, whatz more, to the outsiders??? It’s really weird, It’s just really weird. I ain’t understanding myself for this peculiar behavior of mine. I’m afraid to show my care for people. Take for instance, I obviously wanted to accompany 1 friend for her check-up BUT I ended up saying that I wanted to go for the MarryBrown Meal and looking around that area. Failure, aren’t I just a total failure??? I just seek forgiveness from you. Perhaps I’m really bad, rotten to the utmost level that you’re thinking of snipping off the thread that once brought us together. Voice out your thoughts, if, there were rooms for salvation. Keeping quiet, denying everything ain’t helping either. Sometimes, people are just ignorant of their actions which will eventually ruin things. So, I’m waiting, waiting to hear from you. Yes, I admit, for once again, during that week, when, perhaps, when you needed the support the most, I was neglecting you, I apologize on that. Yes, perhaps to you, it’s just TOO LATE. IT definitely WAS. SORRY… [Perhaps SORRY doesn’t mean anything to you any longer…]

11 comments:

anvexr = raven + x said...

Maybe you are just donno how to express your concern but not don't want show. Anyway don't think too much. Maybe you can open up more. We will be there to support you.

minorsmajor said...

hmmm hmmm hmmm...

hmmm hmmm hmmm...

cant put the words together...
but noone can live on his/her own alone...
everyone needs someone there for them...
I'll be there as well...

Nana Lana said...

sometimes its really hard to let people know how you feel. im a loser in this. a total loser. sigh...

dinosaur said...

haha...... dont think too much neh neh...... i really tot u want eat Marrybrown oh ,that is why i not feeling well also eat with u leh!!! & tot u really want go there to look around that area!!! haha...... u r not lonely,but u r independent!! u r kind but sometimes have to make more fun and be crazy, thats y come visit me more often ya.... but afraid that u will become layu-layu........hahahaha ^_^

anvexr = raven + x said...

If you are loser then I will be the damn fool already. Worse than you...
Independent + fun + crazy = nana lana, good friend of everyone. hahahahaha!!!! Be yourself.

Nana Lana said...

Dinosaur :

Haha, now u noe why i went ady ritez! keke! muacks muacks! MarryBrown wan eat anytime also can one ar... But now, i wan BIG APPLE Doughnuts... kuakuakua!


Raven :

Thanks. but again, u duno d whole story so...u can judge me... :(


I DO HOPE TO BE A GOOD FRIEND TO EVERYONE BUT IT'S REALLY TOUGH FOR ME... ARGHHH....

anvexr = raven + x said...

OK loh.Indeed I cannot judge you. Anyway just do whatever you can do.
BIG APPLE Mid Valley got I can treat you to eat.

Nana Lana said...

Dinosaur will have a big appetite! keke!

anvexr = raven + x said...

Huh? OK lah. One dozen enough mah?

Nana Lana said...

whoa...wahaha! i've gotten half a dozen today ady! wahahaha!!! gonna blog someday when im free.. heehee!

anvexr = raven + x said...

walauei so good!!! Then I treat ri wen then you no need liao. Hahhahaa.