Sweat Your Heart Out!

Sweat Sweat Sweat!

I like it when you sweat your heart out when you're feeling sick!

The more you sweat, the more comfortable I'm feeling...

So, sweat your heart out!

gaga...

Went to PKU today~ The doctor really shocked me with her sudden "action". Duh... Should hv informed me mah~ apalahhh...

Watched my Tasbih Cinta while waiting for Stephy to get her checkup done since I was done pretty earlier~apalah... Dr. betul betul tau check ke? Ishhh... It seemed like I was the one blabbing all the way through telling her how I was feeling inside~ Behhh...

Just hope to get better.

The sicker I get, the more I have to give up! Oh gosh....

They never knew the reasons ; they were trying to draw the finishing line for me. But they never really know. Perhaps, it's better this way. Sicked. I am, I guess I am happy now. XD

Beh tahan! Good Night for the day! Shall consume my DRUGSSSSSSSSSSSS now~ duh...

Thoughts

Just a little or two thoughts that have been depressing deep within me these (TWO) days.

It's sorta a lil bit different from what it used to be.

I don't know.

Who are really "The One(s)" I can turn to?

For last sem, I've found "The One" whom I can really shed my tears with. I cherish her. I do. But I don't really portray it. I wanna change her to be more outgoing so that she can mix with the others.

For the "others", I'm having my doubts now. Of whom I can really trust. Of whom I can turn to. Perhaps, keeping it all to myself is the best thing.

The "eyes". Sort of dismantling me into thousands and millions of pieces. I'm speechless.

If you're asking me whom do I belong to, sorry, I can't give you an answer 'coz I don't even know myself. Being neutral is the best thing, EVER.

I just wanted to have a carefree socialization. Wanted everybody to be happy. No hatred. I just want it to be. I'll be looking forward.

Changes to a better tomorrow. Perhaps.

Jacklyn's Believe It Or Not

This is a story about a girl named...

Jacklyn...

And the story begins...

She was told that in her last life, she'd been so wicked and cruel towards the people...




She was once someone who...

*** walloped her parents, the elderly...

*** broke the limbs of the youngs...

*** swindled people's money with unscrupulous means...

*** 's too powerful


She was just totally INHUMAN in her last life...

With the speculation of her Chinese-8-Characters/Digits, in this life, she will be struck with THREE obstacles. One in her childhood time, One in her middle-aged time, and the last One will be during her old-age.

The *MAN* said "You are a bright girl. You can get what I mean."

She was being advised to somehow, do something to make amends.

*** Be fostered to the Goddess Of Mercy
( She was once told about it too but did nothing... )

*** Donate blood once a year
( Gosh. The Haematology Lab Assistant had a REALLY HARD time taking my blood,
let alone to donate ~450 mL of blood...)

*** Donates more

She was told that in this life, she may have the potential to make money BUT all her fortune will be gone and she will own NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL if she's unrepentant. Of all of the wrongdoings in her PAST LIFE.

She was told... She can own everything she'd ever wanted BUT the only thing that she should worry about is... HAVING NO HUSBAND... NO SPOUSE...!!!
( GOSH....I burst out in laughter! )

She was told that she can dates but... I shouldn't repeat it again~

All these may be a myth but it's always good to play it safe than to be sorry if things are really that accurate.

_____________________________________________________________

Throughout the journey back to JB, things were really playing on my mind.

Being told that one of the obstacles in my life will be in my childhood times. It happened. I broke my left leg while failing to cross the roads safely.
(~Retribution IF I did really broke the limbs of young children in my Last Life~)


Next...In my middle-aged times... Perhaps, being cheated of all my fortune!
(~Retribution for swindling people's money in my Last Life~)


In my old-age... Illnesses befall...
(~Retribution for beating up the elderly in my Last Life~)

*AMITABHA*

Let bygones be bygones...

Let the past be the motivation in my new life.

I shall look forward for tomorrow and do more good deeds.

Forgive and Forget.

Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps.


P/S : Some may not believe in these kinds of things. I'm just posting this up with no intention to make you believe in me.

Stupiak Me

Instead of coalescing myself with BioChem notes, the subject which I've been lagging behind in this semester, I've actually dug out the CD of Memories. Alright, lame. Okay, now I've realised... I've been trying to avoid them. I've been isolating myself from them so much that made me afraid of seeing them any sooner days. Maybe I was selfish. Maybe I just need a whole new environment, a whole new situation to create something new for us. Perhaps the perception they have in their minds are set. No more room for a change in that. But I DO hope they can just accept me for who I am and not from where I've come from. Is That Possible?

Tebrau City, Johor

Don’t just stand there motionless watching me with my lappie, okay? It’s not if I’m indulging in any illicit acts... Oh, come on! I know the limitations of being part of “ Yong”, I know what to do at the right time, right place. Privacy, that’s all I’m asking for, alright? Okay, I’m just blogging, be it that you know my blog or not but it seems like you’ve discovered it! Should I just terminate this bloggie thing? Duhhh...

Being cooped up in the cocoon was just not the right thing to be obedient nor safe, okay? There’re still so many so-called environmental factors to bring out the unwanted influences. As long as I can avoid them, prevent them from happening, then, there’s nothing much to be worried about. Just trust me, alright?

Okay, enough for that...

Hm, went out with the ladies today, Joey and Wee Wee, and met up with Wendy. 3 Months... For roughly as long as 3 whole months that I did not meet up with them. Went for movie thingie. Frankly, for the past few months, I ain’t had any contacts at all with movies nor TV series. Oh gosh, I wanna watch Singapore’s “Beach Baby” and Taiwanese’s “Basketball Fire”????? Wahaha, simply convert the titles man...

Guess what, we bought 3 tickets for “HALLOWEEN” and we watched “CONNECTED” instead!!! Reason??? We, yes, we, no doubt, went into the wrong parlour man...(Jac’s parlour) Despite that, I did enjoyed the thrills, the laughers, the touching scenes. Wahaha! Sounds crazy but I almost went teary in the end because the small boy was just so adorable when he cried over his dad’s habit. Wakaka! Thumbs up though. For me lar.

Haizzz, received a sms from Mr.Kee, asking us to join a reunion, I hope I can go bcoz I wanna go. The thing is, I haven’t ask my mum and I HAVE to get her consent before acting on something, okay... So, erm, pardon me for not replying you first! I’ll see how it goes tomorrow morning! If I can’t join, then you guys have fun tomorrow night, alright? If I can, then I’m gonna makan puas-puas lo! Heehee!

Just read an e-mail from Wee Seng, man, I can't join your Genting trip lar, I got TITAS class, presentation some more, alright.. What a timing! Sighhh... You all have fun ba!

Inside Out

I WONDER...

YOU WONDER...

THEY WONDER...

No one give a damn to it...

WTH???

Now, have you ever wonder what the Narcist wanted all along, all her life?

NO.

Next, have you ever wonder why she's here in this course?

NO.

Hm, then, have you ever wonder what's her real interest?

NO.

I salute my friend for being courageous to give up his years of learning Science to pursue his real interest in life. As for me, getting regretful now. But still within my threshold. Since I'm here, I guess all I have to do is to persevere until the very end of the day. Right? Guess so.

Surprisingly, I came to know that one of my coursemate disliked this course too. To her, it's like wasting $$$ as she did not applied for any scholarships nor loans. Hm, her interest is almost same as mine. We were talking all the way through the Basic Medical Microbiology lecture yesterday. If I do name her here, I bet you guys will be in a total SHOCK. Buahahahaha! So, to play a little trick here, once again, the suspense game. Blek...

There's still a long way to go, a long long way ; never-ending. The route to the future is so dim and there's hardly any street lamps to guide the trespasser. For, it's not the route that anybody can just take and go. If you're given two choices, which will you choose? A psychological game and yet obvious result. I don't have to give you the result. You will know it once you've chosen your route. *grins*

if you still duno, then check this out, man!

[1ST ROUTE, U NOE DEH'S DA BRIDGE, LEADING U DIRECTLY TO DA SEA N YET, U'VE CHOSEN IT, U'RE SENDING URSELF TO UR OWN DEATH. :P]

[2ND ROUTE, OLTHOU IT'S DARK, UNPREDICTABLE FUTURE, SINCE U'VE CHOSEN IT, U'RE BRAVE N TEND TO WITHSTAND THICK N THIN. OLTHOU U CAN'T SEE WAT'S BEYOND DA ROUTE, U'LL CONTINUE WALKING, U'LL CONTINUE TO STRIVE V ALL U HV TO GET THROUGH IT UNTIL U GET WAT U WAN. BRAVO!]

This symbolises me. The ME inside ME. The ME that you can never realize.

*** A Hidden Sun ***

[p/s: while blogging this, something which I hated incurred. Intrusion. Sorry but I really don't like it. When I wanted to be all alone, I really hope I'm just solely-alone with no interruption. That is why I ran all the way to my so-called "secret-frequent-old-place" in the faculty.

Insanity

Ahhhhhhhhhhh...........


shall be the opening for this post... keke...




I pest myself for not being able to persevere until the very end! Although the tests are coming, I just couldn't persevere the determination to study, study and to study! The moment I reach home, back to my room, the moment I sparkled my eyes towards the notes, damn, I headed to my bed. Sleep. Gosh. I don't wish this to happen. What am I going to do if I do fail? Fail... Don't wish to.



At times, I really feel like dropping out from this course, this U but, at times, I don't know what's my aim in my life. See, I've got a test tonight and yet, I'm here, here to my blog. *smack forehead* If I do tell papa mama that I wanna drop out, they gonna force me to work, I don't wanna work yet, I'm not prepared!




How I wished I can lead my whole life, enjoying myself to the fullest but that's a very foolish thought. Perhaps, finding a spouse and marry off may be what I'm aiming for? Be a housewife? Ouchhhhh..... If that's the case, I'll be draining away all this so-called "knowledge" that I've gained so far.




haihhhhh

haihhhhh

haihhhhh



Any job prospect for my course? Heard a lot of stories. Made me wanna drop, really drop but I just couldn't bring it up to my parents. If that's the case, I will have to endure the suffering for memorizing all the lecture notes which do not give me ANYTHING in return but a USELESS CERT.





***sitting here morosely***

I can't see my future.

I can't shape my future.

I....I....I.......





I WANNA FLYYYYYYYYYYY..........

Out Of Nowhere...

Yea, kinda crazy, I don't know why. A waste of time. I'm here again, to my blog. Apparently, the line is freakingly great these few days. Haha. And that made me to somehow, keep on blogging time and again. I wonder why. Maybe I love typing even though I'm a average-speed typist. Keke.

Let's see what's for today's topics...

Mambo # 1

I hate myself since this morning. Why? Have a guess... An answer in your head already? Good. I'm sorry but you've got that absolutely WRONG dude! The answer is...

"Deng Deng Deng Deng"

It's because I woke up freakingly LATE this morning! The weather was so tempting for me to continue sleeping that I've actually forgotten that I've off-ed my alarm when it rang. Goshhh... Planned to wake up 7a.m. in the morning and ended up waking up at 9 something in the morning. Bu bu... Wasted my precious time for the readings of the day. Duhhh...

Mambo # 2

What's for lunch and dinner? Uh hah hah hah... It's Elaine's seaweed-eggs soup. Er... Sorry to say but my eyes kept rolling when I took too much of it. Whoooshhhh..... Rolling thunder meh? Crazy. That's Me. Wuahahaha! Krystal brought mini hot dogs with her. Haha, extra dish. Good good. I've actually steamed my very first steamed egg! Haha! No big deal whatz. Happy for what. Cheh. Childish.

MAMBO # 3

Had a chat with 3 coursemates after dinner in my living room. What are the topics? You don't have to know anyways! Haha! Gossips, craps, etc and etc and etc. Got it? No? Teens Pregnancy and blablabla. Kuakuakua... I used to blog about Teens Pregnancy in my first ever blog back in Secondary School. However, not many people knows nor read it because I gave no one my Blog address. For now, this blog, only close friends know and only people who follows up my life will know. How I wished that that somebody knows but HECK, that somebody ain't interested anymore. Everything's a LIE. N'SYNC's BYEBYEBYE!!!

Have i regretted bringing all those stuffs here with me? As if I was bringing the un-existed companionship with me? HECK HECK HECK. (ouchhh...getting rude here, sorry!) Forget it, the sun is not shining bright anymore. The rainy season is taking over the sunny days. The birds are not chirping happily in the daylight. They have to hide. Hide from the rain and storms. The tide is getting higher and higher. Floods? Will there be any happening soon? Choi Choi Choi. No matter how hard it is, I'll be fighting against all the odds. Here, alone. Independent enough. The sky is not crashing down yet. There's still life. Yeah.

Mambo # 4

"You will thank me in the near future" is what that somebody told me. HECK. Yes, someday, I will call you up and thank you for all the crapz. Dream on. So-not-me. Sms-es not deleted. How I wished I had the HEART, the COLD COLD HEART so as to actually delete the sms-es in welcoming the New Year (2008) and "Ji Xiang Hua" for Chinese New Year! HECK HECK HECK! Everytime when I've marked all those messages to be deleted, there's something which holds me back. And so, I ended up, keeping the messages, safe back in the inbox. Aduiiiii...

It's been months allright???

How to get over it? I thought I did it well but who knows, it kept popping up in my mind. I've made myself to hating you but something just seems so "wrong" in hating you. What's wrong? Ouchhh...

Mambo # 5

Why did I arouse this topic of you again? Why? Arghhh... I didn't want to but hearing the story of one of my coursemate of her problems, it reminded me of you again. Although I wanted to console her by saying "everything will be alright", I was reluctant enough just to give a console of uncertainty. For, prediction is never 100% accurate.

Say HIHI Say BYEBYE...

Mambo # 6

Blog of boringness endz here until the next post...

Shut My Eyes!

There's one Medic gal which I'm practically "bu shuang" of right now! You don't have to put up that so-called "NOTICE" so as to "ALARM" me about "something". I despise that kind of "NOTICE". Buck off lar wei!!! As if you're so popular meh? Bu Bu!

I rather SHUT MY EYES THAN TO WATCH YOU RUNNING IN YOUR PONYTAILS WEI!!!

Buekssssss...................

[Rather pissed off right now. So many things to do yet so little time. Still blog some more. Stupiak Jac!]



***mini mani hom***



Today's Lab is the worse lab work I've ever been in one! I have no idea what to do AT ALL! Shyt. Luckily I managed to catch up with the procedures. To be honest, the way the lecturer explained things were just like shyt? Everyone was dumb-folded ; having their brain nerves entangled everywhere? Were you guys? Or am I just exaggerating? Does brain has nerves? Find it out! Bu Bu!

The laboratory staff, and the lecturer herself were good ACTRESSES indeed! They were really, obviously, pretentious enough to kid the Head of the CB Course. However, sorry, your ploy did not work for me! Bu Bu! Before Prof.D came into the lab, the both of you did not really explain things clearly nor to show us any guides, leaving us having threads entangled together. The moment Prof.D entered the Lab, WHOAAAAAA!!!!!!!! Showing guides from table to table. Bu Bu!

[SHUT MY EYES!!!!!]



***mini mani hom***



TITAS [Tamadun Islam Dan Tamadun Asia]

Gosh, for God's sake, it was not up to my expectation! Sad, I'm really sad though. I aimed for above 90% but ended up getting a 86.67% ! Although it was just a few marks away, but it's still a "few" marks which play a really big role for pushing up my aggregate score for this SEM whatz! After the conversion, I get a 26 upon 30. Sigh... 4 marks gone... Gambateh for the next test then! Assignments! And da final Exam!



***mini mani hom***



Yesterday, I went for the FRIM visit as what I've blogged before this right? Yep! Went for it and it was a tremendous experience for me. An eye opening for me indeed! Getting close to the nature is what I've been wanting to do. Jungle Trrekking. OMG! Hanging bridge,da Canopy Walkway, really had a lot of fun! With my bunch of cool and cute friends, everything was just so amazing that really made me wanna shout it out loud like TARZAN!!!

***Ar Yi Ar Yi Ar Yi ARRRRRRRRRR***

Ooooppppsssssss!!!!!!!!

Although it was really tiring that we've actually climbed a hundred miles, the experience was really great! A few Hundreds miles??? Exaggerating! Haha! By the way, I was panting like hell and no one really know that I'm actually a little asthmatic. I kept lamenting that I'm going to be breathless soon BUT I think that they thought that I was joking because I did not say it in a serious tone? Wakaka!

Reached my apartment-styled hostel at around 3pm. Took my shower, skipped my lunch AGAIN and prepare for toiletries shopping with my gals! Haha! We left at about 5 something in the evening and reached Mid Valley at 6 something. Left at around 8.30 pm because we can't stay for long. We need to catch the KTM bus straight to our hostel whatz. Unfortunately, we did not managed to catch the bus and ended up paying 2 bucks for the Rapid Bus. Keke!

Upon reaching our hostel, we had a toilet-battle! Wahaha! Elaine with her rain coat, everyone with their own lab-gloves!!!!! Wakaka! With the pipe water splashing everywhere, soaps on the wall, floor, oh, just everywhere!!! Can you imagine that? Can YOU???

BOOOOOOOOOO......

GOTCHA!!!!!

Haha, we cleaned the toilet only lar. Scrubbing here and there. Washing here and there. Heehee! No raincoat lar! Lab Gloves, frankly, they stole it from the Lab. Wahaha! As for me, I used my own gloves which is really meant for washing up toilet one hoh! Haha!

Oklar, for the FRIM pictures/photos, I'll upload it soon...

Till the next post! Miss You!

*winks*

Naggy Nanalana!!!

LIFE has been so GREAT to me! I’ve never realize it until I truly get a touch of it! It was just so FANTASTIC babe!

Months ago, there was a period of time when I found life was so meaningless when someone had induced the HEARTBREAKENING decision to me. I was like hanging by a thread ; like an utterly fragile glass ; having wild thoughts of DYING??? WTH!!! All because of the SUPER DUPERLY NONSENSE THING? FORGET IT!!! Thinking about it now made my heart sore. All the so-called sacrifices made for you are NOT worth it any longer yea? Even though I do get news of you through a third party, [apparently, there were quite a few third parties] whenever I heard the news, I wasn’t really INTO it. I guess it’s really OVER for me.

I do get curious about every single step you take.

I do want to know what’s happening in your life right now, at this very minute, at this very moment.

I do want to initiate a contact with you.

BUT... BUT, I do not have the courage. I bet it’s bound back to my first failed “He-She” thing. Nothing was sacred. I should not have taken the path. But it was tempting in the first place. WTH??? Tempting?

Buck off lar Jac!

Wake Up!

Bahhhhhhh.........

Promises made were meant to be BROKEN.

Promises made were never carried out?

Promises made were all, drained, drained away...

For, no one try to save them from the tide.

Arghhhhhh..... Sorry for those irritating laments. It’s been a while since I last blog about all these stuff until recently, it came up to me again. I wonder why. This stupiak brain of mine. Whooooshhhh! Will you stop haunting me? Neh neh. For avid Nanalanapeeps readers, maybe you’ll realize that ever since I’ve started blogging in Nanalanapeeps, I’ve reduced so much in despair blogs compared to MyLiveSpace yea? Bahhh... Now, it’s coming up again. Sorry if you find it boring again!

Let’s get on to my NEW LIFE. The REAL life that I’ve been longing and searching for! I’ve found it here! Here, in my U!!! MY NEW REAL LOVE! I’ve never loved my life so much until I’ve had my toes glued to the territory of a U where there are lotsa researchers? Uhhhh..... Preferably, the only U in Malaysia which specializes in researches. We, the freshies were told as what I’ve said. Wakaka! Although I had my fun here, there were times when I was really frustrated. For? For God’s sake! Blehhh! NehNehNeh BuBu! Not going to tell you here! Wait till I can’t hold it any longer! Wahaha! See, I’m doing a real big ROUND-ABOUT turn here [belek-belek] ! Haven’t really get to the main point of my post of the day! Well, I was actually influenced by one of the blogger which I’ve browsed through her blog. And it was ULTRALY LONG babe! No kidding! And that was why, I think that I can be even naggier than her! Wahaha! So far, do I have the potential to be crowned as the NAGGIEST QUEEN??? Haha!

Ok lar, for some readers, you may get bored right now... Do cha? So, go wash your face before you continue reading! Or just shut your lappie and hug your comfy bolster! Wakaka! Chasing readers kah? Nothing of the sort. I guess I’m just too free already! Yeah, as if I’m REAL FREE! So many chores waiting for me, so many assignments, tests are coming up again although some results were still unrevealed. Keeping me in suspense! I’m actually looking forward for my TITAS results. Wonder how I did. Was freezing like hell in the exam hall the other day and so, I took my leave earlier before the exam ended. Kinda feeling guilty. For, I’ve never left the exam hall, never, not before the exam ended! It was my very first time doing so! Wuwuwuwu!

So, what’s my main post all about? Ladies and gentleman, boys and girls, now, let me update you what I did in the past week. Yeah, in just a week time, I’ve participated in quite a number of activities. Man, it was really exhausting but who cares so long as man can breathe, eyes can see, so long live these (the activities), and this give life to ME!!! Wakaka! Shakespeare! Muackkkss! Dumb-folded? Don’t give me that freaking confused face! (as if I can see!) Wahaha! For those who have no idea of what I'm talking about, go read up some of WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE’s poems okay? Chaoz chaoz! By the way, all the sacrifices of my precious time piggy nights were worth it. I had my fun to the fullest!

Akacha*********

Let’s see, hm...

Last Sunday night, on the 17th of August, I had my first Chinese Annual Dinner for my course, da Chinese-BioMedical-ians.

Then, had my first ever visit to a farm! To the Agriculture Farm of UPM as part of my course program. (on the 20th of August).

On the 21st of August, I’ve attended a Lantern Fest organized by the 10th College (Han Wen’s College).

Then... tomorrow, Yeah, tomorrow, the 24th of August, Sunday, I’m going to the FRIM! OMG!!! I can’t wait for it! Hanging Bridge, my favourite! It’s not going to bring trauma to me alright! And I’m going to say HI to the largest fishy of the Amazon! Mama Mia! Hope to get some nice pictures/photos to share with those friends who are going! Sobz Sobz can’t have fun with you all! Waterfall will be part of the plan too! But... *wiggling* “somebody can’t get into the water....”

SOBBBBBBBBBBB!!!!!!!

Boys and girls.... here you go... [Ah Pek, Ah Ngm can’t read ya! Wakaka! Joking lar!]

CAD NIGHT 17-08-2008

Spot me! Heehee! Part of the gals of my batch! Everyone was so demure the other day! Only me, I guess so, still so tom-boyish? Wakaka!

A few random photos of me, camwhoring with my gals! Wakaka!

Elaine & Me. Am I sophisticated? Wakaka!

My Buddy Men Wai & Me! Aren't I fat? And yet, sophisticated? Wakaka!

~Da Prom King and Prom Queen of da nite~

CONGRATZ!!!

Plenty of pictures were taken but I can’t possibly upload all of it here right? Yeahhh!!! Heehee!

Next, da Farm Visit!

I really had my fun here! The truck ride was just so awesome! I wanna have more of it, can I? Heehee!

Mamma Mia!

Look at this! Our candid snap! Wakaka!

On the truck, I love this pic! Heehee!

Ar hem, I love this as well, gonna be thick-skinned here, er, the chick is indeed cute But the Persona up there in the picture itself is not bad too yea? Agree? Wakaka! Slap myself!

Buuuuuu!!!!!

Some random pictures taken : At Rambutan Farm

It can be helped, I really love camwhoring. Who’s my mate? You’ll know that! Haha! And if you wanna join me, I’ll always be in open arms! Wakaka!

What's NEXT???

*****GRINS*****

*****FROWNS*****

Probably the least enjoyable event. Boooooo..... I met Han Wen there and chatted for a while. Really for a “while” only. Haha! Yea, it was the Lantern Festival. Apparently, I did not enjoy much. I thought that it will be really fun but somehow, it turns out be a total disappointment TO ME. I don’t really know why. I guess that the flow of the event wasn't really that captivating and I ended up eating tit-bits with my gals in the cafeteria. For God’s sake, can’t I eat my tit-bits back in my hostel, my room? Apalah ehhh???

Here you go, random pictures taken :

Guys, the whole experience I had here is only the beginning of my life. I've never enjoyed myself that much. I'm just hoping to explore more in the near future! May all the joys and laughter be shared together. May all the people live together happily. Ain't getting emotional here though. Haha! Just hope that joys and laughters can be shared together with the others. Bubu!

Bolster, bolster, I'm coming for you! Poor me, didn't bring along my bolster! Who wanna sponsor me? Then, I'll be able to think or rather, to dream of you when I sleep! Wakaka! Anyone? Ar hem!

Can't wait for tomorrow's exploration! Just hope it will be a TOTAL fun experience!

Till then, will update soon!