Stupiak Me

Instead of coalescing myself with BioChem notes, the subject which I've been lagging behind in this semester, I've actually dug out the CD of Memories. Alright, lame. Okay, now I've realised... I've been trying to avoid them. I've been isolating myself from them so much that made me afraid of seeing them any sooner days. Maybe I was selfish. Maybe I just need a whole new environment, a whole new situation to create something new for us. Perhaps the perception they have in their minds are set. No more room for a change in that. But I DO hope they can just accept me for who I am and not from where I've come from. Is That Possible?

Wishing In Silence

I'm here again, I'm posting this of in the remembrance of a dead relationship and yet living individuals. Wahaha! [creating an unexpected impact here. Coz I promised not to blog on this anymore. So, no more.] Let's just wait until the clock struck 12am for the 4th of October and then, *tada*, I'll post this up, hope that I'll get that on time. Probably not as just accurate as I've wanted. No one cares either. Bubu.

Speechless...

Nuthin butta Lie...

Okay, frankly, honestly, I guess I've gotten over it but who knows? I'm not 100% sure about it but somehow sometimes I really think that it's so over and that the time was really up for me to fly. You know? I bet you don't give a damn now. Since I've said I've gotten over it, but then again there's still the urge for me to blog about it whenever I felt like blogging. There were several occasion whereby I've actually typed out everything but with just a click, I've eradicated, deleted very single thing! Mamma Mia! I shall sing it one fine day!

But friend, I guess I've hurted you with what you've read before this. I don't see right from wrong or the either way. I've never tried to judge anybody because I know I shouldn't given my own plight. Maybe the once promised friendship was just dismantled with an unknown truth. Gosh.

Okay, I've sent out my greetings for you. I don't really pin any hope for you to accept it in your FS. I knew it. Since you've never approved something which I've sent before. Mid-Autumn, hm, I was waiting for a well-wisher but then, it never appeared on my HP screen like how you used to make my screen brightened up with sudden delightments on the 1st of January, time 11.18am ; on the 6th of February, time 11.02pm... Silly me... Bubu...

Heehee Haahaa Huuhuu!

Vespa will never be a once again Vespa as Harley will never be the same Harley againz.

Haha! What a joke am I crapping on? Gotcha?

I just wanna wish somebody a.....very.....

Happy Birthday, my friend!

Remember to burp 20 times before your day endz! I mean before your Birthday endz! And not your life! You still have ample of times to burp throughout your life but make sure you burp for 20times for today! Gosh, as if you will get to see this again... Bubu!

CRAPZZZ

Inside Out

I WONDER...

YOU WONDER...

THEY WONDER...

No one give a damn to it...

WTH???

Now, have you ever wonder what the Narcist wanted all along, all her life?

NO.

Next, have you ever wonder why she's here in this course?

NO.

Hm, then, have you ever wonder what's her real interest?

NO.

I salute my friend for being courageous to give up his years of learning Science to pursue his real interest in life. As for me, getting regretful now. But still within my threshold. Since I'm here, I guess all I have to do is to persevere until the very end of the day. Right? Guess so.

Surprisingly, I came to know that one of my coursemate disliked this course too. To her, it's like wasting $$$ as she did not applied for any scholarships nor loans. Hm, her interest is almost same as mine. We were talking all the way through the Basic Medical Microbiology lecture yesterday. If I do name her here, I bet you guys will be in a total SHOCK. Buahahahaha! So, to play a little trick here, once again, the suspense game. Blek...

There's still a long way to go, a long long way ; never-ending. The route to the future is so dim and there's hardly any street lamps to guide the trespasser. For, it's not the route that anybody can just take and go. If you're given two choices, which will you choose? A psychological game and yet obvious result. I don't have to give you the result. You will know it once you've chosen your route. *grins*

if you still duno, then check this out, man!

[1ST ROUTE, U NOE DEH'S DA BRIDGE, LEADING U DIRECTLY TO DA SEA N YET, U'VE CHOSEN IT, U'RE SENDING URSELF TO UR OWN DEATH. :P]

[2ND ROUTE, OLTHOU IT'S DARK, UNPREDICTABLE FUTURE, SINCE U'VE CHOSEN IT, U'RE BRAVE N TEND TO WITHSTAND THICK N THIN. OLTHOU U CAN'T SEE WAT'S BEYOND DA ROUTE, U'LL CONTINUE WALKING, U'LL CONTINUE TO STRIVE V ALL U HV TO GET THROUGH IT UNTIL U GET WAT U WAN. BRAVO!]

This symbolises me. The ME inside ME. The ME that you can never realize.

*** A Hidden Sun ***

[p/s: while blogging this, something which I hated incurred. Intrusion. Sorry but I really don't like it. When I wanted to be all alone, I really hope I'm just solely-alone with no interruption. That is why I ran all the way to my so-called "secret-frequent-old-place" in the faculty.

Insanity

Ahhhhhhhhhhh...........


shall be the opening for this post... keke...




I pest myself for not being able to persevere until the very end! Although the tests are coming, I just couldn't persevere the determination to study, study and to study! The moment I reach home, back to my room, the moment I sparkled my eyes towards the notes, damn, I headed to my bed. Sleep. Gosh. I don't wish this to happen. What am I going to do if I do fail? Fail... Don't wish to.



At times, I really feel like dropping out from this course, this U but, at times, I don't know what's my aim in my life. See, I've got a test tonight and yet, I'm here, here to my blog. *smack forehead* If I do tell papa mama that I wanna drop out, they gonna force me to work, I don't wanna work yet, I'm not prepared!




How I wished I can lead my whole life, enjoying myself to the fullest but that's a very foolish thought. Perhaps, finding a spouse and marry off may be what I'm aiming for? Be a housewife? Ouchhhhh..... If that's the case, I'll be draining away all this so-called "knowledge" that I've gained so far.




haihhhhh

haihhhhh

haihhhhh



Any job prospect for my course? Heard a lot of stories. Made me wanna drop, really drop but I just couldn't bring it up to my parents. If that's the case, I will have to endure the suffering for memorizing all the lecture notes which do not give me ANYTHING in return but a USELESS CERT.





***sitting here morosely***

I can't see my future.

I can't shape my future.

I....I....I.......





I WANNA FLYYYYYYYYYYY..........

A Superb Companion

I knew you were there
coz I saw you there...
I knew I was a mute
coz I've never talked to you...
I knew you were there
coz I REALLY saw you there...

??? Having question marks all over your head ???

What the hell am I crapping about?
Duh...
Sudden urge to post up a blog right now...

With my laptop in the air-conditioned library, with the stiffed fingers caused by the coldness, here am I, typing up something stupid...

Bahhh
Bahhh
Bahhh

Doing my Human Genetics' Report at StarBuck, I saw you lar. Although far away, I still sense a special companion around me. Although You might be invisible sometimes, but you were always there. I guess so. Sitting alone at a 12-seaters Table, I was not alone coz I've sensed the special companionship given. I was peeping at you BUT you were always nowhere in my sight.

WHAT?

You were not there, and why do I need to "peep" at you? I shall be looking for you instead! Yea, this is it! THIS IS IT!

THIS IS MY BLOG! You will never get to understand my blog IF you were not me, not the typist! I've never wanted to reveal something which is meant to be "NOT-TO-BE-REVEALED" UNLESS the situation allows me to...

This situation that I'm having now is giving me the headache. Will it be like what really happened before this? I don't wanna know coz " I DON'T WANNA KNOW ".

*ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

No Idea

Shall I...

Drop Oral Interaction Skill

And

Take Up Public Speaking ???

OR

Shall I...

Just Continue v My

Oral Interaction Skill ???

It will costs me 50 bucks to drop a program
And another 50 bucks to take up another program
So, in total it will be 100 bucks!

Guess what, I can get around 8 cups of nice beverages in STARBUCKS for that!

So, what to do?

Mama, mama mia!

Oral Interaction Skills seem easy to score BUT I don't like the current schedule!
Duhhhhh...
I'm so troublesome...